Ordinary

01:36

If I were to play your game, use your constructions and play your game, if anything, I would think 'angels' would be 'jealous' you found something so ordinary [as opposed to something so "out of the ordinary" — what issue do you take with ordinary?]. The 'ordinary' is stunning. Literally, it is meant to stun you. I say stunning not to say beautiful. Beautiful or not. It should stun you. You should be in awe. Silent. Unable to find words. Are you not in awe? It is stunning. It is all stunning. The ordinary is stunning. Do you know how to see yourself? Do you know how to see beauty? Do you know what is beauty? Do you know what makes beauty? Define for me beauty. I'd like to know what you believe is the meaning. I'm curious what you call beauty [I'm not so fixed on my own meaning, so I'd like to know yours]. What is beauty. Tell me beauty.

01:57

It's ordinarily exceptional. Stunning. Exceptionally ordinary. An absolute non-contradiction and simultaneous paradox. Stunning.

02:00

Do you not collapse at ordinary? Do you not collapse in the presence of ordinary? Beautiful.

02:07

The fact ordinary could even exist is awe-inspiring. The fact there is ordinary should be incomprehensible, near incomprehensible. Can you imagine? To have an exception, then to have it again, and to have it again and again and again, to have an abundance of exceptions, to be given presented with a literal abundance of 'new', of "shouldn't exist", to be flooded with exceptions to the point you could find them ordinary. Stunning. You have been absolutely flooded with 'brand new', with 'this didn't use to exist', with 'this isn't "supposed to" be here' so much so that you find it 'ordinary'. For you to find something 'ordinary', you have to be absolutely flooded with it. There is a literal overflow of exceptions. Everything was once new. Every thing didn't use to exist. [Every thing was not once what it is.]. The fact that anything could be ordinary is extraordinary. It's a paradox. The extraordinary is happening so many times, over and over and over again, that you think it is ordinary. You have been flooded with the extraordinary so much that you think it could be ordinary. Things that "shouldn't be" happening keep on happening again and again and again. Flooded. The fact that ordinary should exist is extraordinary. It doesn't make sense. We only have ordinary because the extraordinary is extraordinary in being ordinary. [The extraordinary continues to be extraordinary in being ordinary.]. Absolutely stunning. Don't you get it? Are you not confused? Are you not having difficulty with words? Are you not still? Stunning. Are you not stunned? You should be in awe. Ordinary? Imagine. If anything, they should be 'jealous' you've found ordinary. You should be so lucky to have anything ordinary. [In what world do you have ordinary? Where did you get that from? Where the hell did you get that from? How have you managed to find 'ordinary'? Stunned.]. Do you know how to see beauty? Do you know how to see yourself?

02:13

They call me quiet, "shy".
I'm just stunned. Witnessing. It's beautiful.

02:48

It's all beautiful. That's all I see. I'm in awe.

04:39

Your problem is you think he intends to deprive you.  Your problem is you think you are intended to be deprived.  If I play your game, if I’m playing with your concepts.  I don’t need to share your beliefs, but you tell me who he is supposed to be and I take your definitions and I play by your game.  I play by your rules.

I play by your rules and I’m confused why you think he intends to deprive you.

The good, the amazing, the incredible should only be “out of the ordinary” if not good, not amazing, not incredible is meant to be ordinary.  It’s what you should expect.  You think he intends to deprive you and I’m not sure why.  If I play by your rules, I’m not sure why.  By your definitions, the intention shouldn’t be to deprive.  By how you define him, good is the ordinary.  The ordinary is good.

That said, if the standard is not good, not amazing, not incredible, based on your expectations, following the use of “out of the ordinary”, and his intention is not to deprive [presumably], it should be expected that he consistently presents you with “out of the ordinary”.  It should be expected that he consistently presents exceptions to not good, to the standard of not incredible, if his intention is not to deprive.  From the definitions you give me of him.  If I play your game.  It should be ordinary to find the “out of the ordinary”.  There is nothing out of the ordinary about it.  It is so absolutely regular.  Or rather, it should be.

Either way, if I take up your fundamental beliefs, all I should expect to find is the amazing. The extraordinary and the absolutely ordinary.  In essence, neither the “ordinary” nor the “extraordinary” truly exist.  So, what do you see?

04:55

05:02

Neither exists because they both do endlessly.  Without bounds.  They violate each others' space.  They occupy spaces they should not occupy.  These are not concepts that should occupy the same space and yet they do.  They perpetually cease to exist because they both insist on being present in the same moment at the same time for the same occurrences.  They absolutely violate each other.  They war and they violate and sustain and create.  They build each other and it is absolutely amazing.

Very ordinary, no?

05:05

5:22

He has you fooled.  He left the choice to you.  Gave you the ultimate freedom of seeing what you want to see.  The gift of paradox is it is up to you to figure it out.  It is up to you to see.  It is up to you to focus.  The gift of paradox is choice.  The gift of paradox is nonsense.  And in nonsense, you have the freedom to play.  The freedom to exercise your will and your capacity to reason and make sense.  The freedom to play intellectually and find what you’ll see.  [Give them room to play, to stimulate, to create.  So loving.  So intimate.  — Near midnight 28 jun 2024.].  I wonder what you call love.  Anyway, he has given you room to play.  Intellectually.  Play.  He has given you choice.  So what will you see?

Presuming I take your definitions.  Presuming I take up your beliefs.  Presuming I can build out an image of this “he”.

I think he loves you.

5:36

7:33

If ever you have trouble believing in magic, remember that ordinary exists.  That is your proof.

7:34

This is proof of the impossible.

7:44

Do you know what it takes to be able to find something ordinary?  Do you know what it takes to have ordinary?  You should be in shock at every moment.  And the fact you are not should be shock-inducing.  And the fact you sit here still not in shock is the only evidence you’ll ever need of magic.

7:47

22:35

Look around you.  None of it should be here.  None of it should exist.  And yet it does.  You have been given the gift of ordinary.  You have been given the extraordinary circumstance of having ‘ordinary’.

22:36

From giovedì, the 24th of april, 2025.