Anger

Copy type. Thoughts and happenings mid-commute. The 1st of November. 2024.

Circa 10:25. Friday, November 1, 2024.

I think people want to feel. Like they really want to feel. I mean desperately they seem to be feening for it. They are desperate. They want it. They want to feel. (Desperate – Despair?). They need it.

And simultaneously, there is an underlying current of covert and casual dissociation, disconnection, detachment, and numbness spreading throughout the population.

What ever will they do?

10:31

10:32

The people want to be angry. I love anger. The people want to be angry. They want to feel. They want to be angry they want to feel. You tell me they want to be angry. They want to feel. I tell you they want to feel. They want to feel. I love anger. I tell you something about anger. When I'm numb anger makes me feel I love anger. When I am anger anger makes me feel I tell you something. Anger makes me feel. It makes them feel. It breaks me. The people they want to feel. I tell you something when I'm numb, Anger makes me feel.

I had a conversation with someone. No, that's not true. There was a conversation. They asked me. Tell me characters you relate to but don't tell me why. And I'll tell you many of them weren't human. I'll tell you many of them were dead. They had this ability, some of them, they had this ability to turn off their emotions. Turn it all off. Shut the system down. And I'll tell you something, I do this too. No, I did. I'm done. I don't do this. I want to feel.

10:39

10:50

I don't do this. I did. I'll tell you I did. I lie. I don't know. Maybe I don't. I don't do this. But it happens. It grows out of control you see. I don't do this. I don't do this anymore but it happens. It might. But yes I did this. For time. I don't do this I did. I've been trying to feel for some time. I tell you I'd been trying to feel. I don't. I don't try. I feel. But for time, I'd been trying to feel. I had to be numb. I needed it. It's useful. But I wanted to feel. And I'll tell you, one of the first things I feel is anger. They asked me tell me characters you relate to and don't tell me why and I told you these beings they shut it all off and shut it all down I do id and I'll tell you what do you think they do when they want to feel. Actually they never want to feel (they say) but what do you think they do when they want them to feel the people who love them — what do you think they do when they want them to feel again when they want to help them. Angry. They make them angry. Angry. They make them angry I love angry.

People want to feel. They need it. They're desperate. They want to fight They want to feel. They want anger. They need it. They are dying for it. They tell me they're angry they want to Feel.

And yet, there is an underlying current of covert and casual dissociation, disconnection, detachment, numbness, and unfeeling. They want to feel. Please help them. They want to feel. What ever will they do.

11:02

14:49:19 1 Nov 2024

If you let me tell you anything, let me tell you this. Do not turn it off. If you let me tell you anything, let me tell you this. Do not get stuck there. If you turn it off, do not get stuck. Do not get comfortable with it off. Change quickly. As fast as you can. Do not get stuck with it off.

Anger is a touchpoint. It is a point of access. It is often the first point of access for feeling when you are numb. There is more. You can move from anger. Start there, but there is more. You can feel again. It is good to be angry. It is useful. Anger is resilient. It is useful. It is insightful. But, there's always more. If ever you get stuck there, you can feel again. With time.

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