A lot of people don't have time

I'll be honest, I've never really liked this I just— it wrong, I'm sorry, it's just wrong, it irks me and I know "we all have the same 24 hours", the rhetoric we love to hate, but "don't have time" is just wrong, it doesn't make sense, it's simply not true. There is no "don't have time". 13:14:52 There are only decisions and this is frightening because almost always when you are reminded of your decisions or asked about the decisions you made, you are followed by shame. Whoever's asking follows with shame or they follow with feedback that elicits or aims to elicit shame and that shame follows you for years to come. "Why" becomes a trigger. Because your reasons will never be good enough. "Why" seems the step before an attack, always and you are prepared. You are prepared to be attacked. It's all you expect. But there is still no "don't have time". You cannot have or not have time. You spend it. You spend it and you make decisions. Time cannot be kept. You cannot have it. Spend it.

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13:22:00

This is just a particular linguistic thing that irks me. Words matter and how we use our words in a sentence matters. The connotations and perceptioins we have with a particular word will affect the connotations and perceptions of all other words in the sentence in which it is used. When we say "have time", our understanding of "have" and what it means "to have" something will indubitably affect our understanding of time and how we approach time and how we operate under Time. When we say "I don't have", our understanding of "have" and what it means "to have" will indubitably affect our understanding of I and the self and how we approach the self and how we operate fundamentally under Self. How we operate as I. We say "don't" in conjunction with "I" we indubitably mark our understanding of I. Have marks Time and Have marks I and Don't marks Have and I and...

We make decisions. And that's okay. Because you're making decisions wisely. You're making decisions intelligently. You're almost always making decisions that get you what you need. You cannot have time. No one has time. You cannot possess time in the way that you can possess objects and space. What you can do is pass it. What you can do is spend it. You can only spend. And you make decisions of how you spend it.

This is the troubling part because common narratives will introduce a sense of shame here. You are spending time incorrectly. If only you were to do something else. If only you were to make other decisions. They attack your intelligence and your sense of self. They attack your understanding of your ability to make moves in the world and do what you "should" do (i.e., do what would get you closest to what you want). They do not honour and appreciate the intelligence already present in the decisions you have been making.

The reason I really don't like this phrasing is it is yet another way in which your intelligence and capabilities are being undermined and attacked and it's so pervasive. There are systems set up in nearly every facet of "life" that undermine your capabilites and neg you and I find this one so particularly

[Published from drafts 30 ott 2025 circa 03:12:34; unfinished.]